I wake today each day with no job,tax man or any other parental responsibilty.Striving each day to be better than the day that past and to foresee dreams so big for what tomorrow might be, but no I woke up reeking like yesterday with the same 4 friends I have been with for 4 days now.
Isolated as I want a new feeling...my bank balance is in a negative credit with the merchant. Depressed and alone my high has gone and reality says another... I need a fix. A quick plan of negative conversation as we all done and dusted we "google"( and not Microsoft software) the plan is full. Scared to say no because we all need a solution... I sacrifice my moms phone like a war hero saying "I had enough" to my highness friends. I'm in with the guys.. We smoke... We high and for the next 2 hours we sorted... Shared and despair needless to think to what I have done moms wireless and I'm highness on sorrow of fallen tears. I find myself out of stock and broke as Zimbabwe it's the next soldier to lay down the gun and man up. Peer pressure is mounting, I get the gun turned on me to provide this want, need,habit-soldier day dream..."do what you did to prove you are who you say you are.
I have not been home day 3... Walk in moms crazy as hell...
I argue my way thru moms is mad as hell. I get angry blame my dad for not being there,mom is selfish has dad's money I want my piece of the cut. I decide to go and take some of dad's tool as collateral. Let's get high lotto is in we back at it. And so it goes on till I have taken my heart out and smoked myself to a narrative shell of somebody I used to know.
Mom made a case I'm behind bars begging no friends,strangers that I'm confined to... 8 months of petty crime to my name.
These are the struggle a lot of parents go thru on a daily basis. Some fortunate others no so lucky... Youths where have you gone... Peer pressure, uneducated on how to do simple math of life,unemployed and seeking attention to fit in where you can get in attitude is the most crippling thing to our youth. Lossing touch of being real has left our kids out of control. Our social circles of today compared to yester year will remain a dream to the youth of today. They live a life faced with dilemmas that they can't solve.We need to take back what is ours... Parents take back you children,brothers be your brothers keeper, sisters your prince needs his princess sister... Communities take back where you live... Our kids the youth of today are spiral so fast and out of control that we can't keep up... Stop that train you have the power to believe in you, family and communities...
Till next time..
Krazy Munkey
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